Independence.......

Its the second day after my final exams got over. And it feels similar to 15 August 1947. Years and years of oppression finally coming to an end. Well in reality me completeing my engineering is nothign compared to India getting freedom. But now I sure do understand what the feeling might have been that time. Not many people would understand this feeling. All of us are doing something in life and everything is tough and it sure as hell feels like a pain. But for me it wasnt just that. There was a point in my life i had come to believe that I wont be able to do this at all. It was a time I had lost total faith in my self. After that when I decided to continue with engineering, it had become more of a challenge for me. I decided for my self that i had to take up engineering. During my first year I was totally laid back, believeing that if so many people have done engineering, why cant I do it? But I was wrong. The realization dawned upon me a little late to save myself a valuable year. But now that I look back upon it, Iwont say I am glad it happened, but I sure am not sad as well. I made a very good friend in Gopal during the failed year. After I joined college again, I did not realize that I was headed for a memorable three years. I learned that I can complete engineering. Slowly and steadily my graph went up and my confidence which I had lost started coming back again. I made some good friends in my class as well as outside. I learnt what we call 'duniya dari'. I learnt how each professor has to be dealt with according to his or her merit. I realised how important it is to sit through the entire 3 hours of a paper even if u donno shit. I learnt to be a fighter of sorts. The friends I made in my class had a lot to do with this change in attitude. People who are smart to study only what is required and people who know what is to be written in the paper and what is not. Basically what they say, its not I always hard work but smart work as well. These experinces of failure, sucess and triumph I had are going to help me in my life ahead. Now that I look at it, it isnt a feeling of independence from engineering but a feeling of liberation oy my mind and soul.