The Dark Side of Life....

One of my good friends recently pointed it out to me. I don exactly remember how the discussion started, but i just generally asked her whether she had the seen the movie 'COMPANY', made by our own Ram Gopal Varma. And then she asked me why i was askin her that. I told her that this movie was a landmark for me in the sense that this was the movie that provoked me to look at films and film making seriously. On this answer she said that i should also watch positive movies. To be honest i do watch positive films, but its the dark and sinister kind of movies that attract me more. But the question she asked me made me think, why so? Its not that i am one of a kind. I know so many people who share the same view. Most of them belong to my generation itself. But the fact of the matter remains, why? Has something bizarrely gone wrong with this generation? Or is this jus an evolution. I would not like to analyze why others do so, but i jus thought for a while, why am i attracted to the dark side of life? I can say that I had an easy life where I got almost everything I demanded and as some people would like to call me 'spoilt'. Basically I never had to go through any hardships for any thing. So as you know that the grass is greener on the other side, may be a life where its not so easy is something attractive. Another reason could be that i have never been the center of attraction. As a kid i rarely recieved the attention a kid at that age deserves. It wasn't my parents but more so among my peers. Friends, cousins etc. I was also taunted a lot for various reasons. And that affected me quite a lot. May be the dark side was a way to feel positive about my self by realizing that there are worse things in life. May be at an impressionable age it felt glamorous to be that way. Dark mysterious and sinister. Standing at the 'tapri' alone with a cigarette in your hand and looking aimlessly and thinking about something. Many of us have tried emulating what they call today the 'anti-hero' by striking a pose in front of the mirror or reciting dialogues from films. I had seen an experiment on the discovery channel once where they interviewed kids from kinder garden and asked them whether stealing is wrong. All of them had a straight answer, "yes its wrong". the same children were interviewed again when they were older may be 11 or so and their replies to the same question changed drastically. Some wanted to know what was the reason for stealing. Some wanted to know wat was stolen, and say if it was food, then the person stealing should not be punished because he stole since he was hungry.

Well all said and done, i cant really pinpoint why i am attracted to the 'dark side'. Could be any of these reasons mentioned above or may be something else. Well i guess certain things cannot be explained in words.